Week 32+ (at last)

Finally crossing over to the 3rd trimester of this 2nd pregnancy. It seemed forever! A great achievement for us all, I must say – considering that my first pregnancy with Xi En ended at 31 weeks.

Some updates after my last post on this pregnancy – We visited the obstetrician before Christmas and did a simple quick scan. Unfortunately the placenta seemed not to be budging from the cervix. It’s still pretty much where it was when it was first discovered. Well.. the good news is – I am still here with No. 2 kicking and squirming around.

It’s surreal to feel a life in you. This pregnancy is almost entirely different from my first one. With enough amniotic fluid to go around, No. 2 can swim and move around easier. During my No. 1,  Xi En had to be contented with being tucked in the right corner of my womb from Week 21 till 31. It was difficult to feel much movements then. It’s amazing how he survived the odds.

With No. 2, I am much more mobile than before. The pros are: I can do everyday things and continue life as per usual; save reducing work load and physical activities. The cons are: I am putting on much more weight as compared to No 1’s – catching up with hubby’s weight is no fun. I am feeling the weight of the 3rd trimester now; together with the back aches, frequent pee trips and totally uncomfortable sleeping positions.

But hey; I can’t be complaining. It’s a thankful feeling that I can feel a heavy No. 2 in me and so so comforted that he is holding out well thus far. It’s a nervous feeling of not being sure when he might start fighting for space with the placenta. The obstetrician did warned that once No. 2 starts turning and taking position for birth, there is a risk of his head putting pressure on the placenta (if it’s still in the same place as now).

I dare not over think the future now. Just praying somehow all will remain smooth till a planned caesarean in Feb 2013. As for my thyroid issues, it’s under control for this pregnancy and doctor said we will deal with the rest after baby is born. Right now, we are praying No. 2 will not be affected by the medication that I am taking now. As all parents’ wishes are:  we only want the baby to be healthy.

Aside from all above and the festive holiday mood , I was somewhat affected by a shocking news I received today. A long time dear friend was diagnosed of a late stage rare cancer and is suffering from it now. No words can describe what I believing she is going through now. We are similar in age and it’s disheartening to hear that there might be no cure; just trying all means to prolong the time for her. As a mother, I felt strongly for her and her young infant and family. Life is so unpredictable; so fragile sometimes…

I am thankful for our years of friendship and praying hard for her to survive this ordeal; praying for a miracle; a fulfilling long life for her. If you are reading this, my dear friend – know that you are very much-loved and cherished. It’s not easy; but please hold on to hope; will be cheering and supporting you.

“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.

When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown.

When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.”

Isaiah 43:2 (NIV)

Cafe Melba @ Goodman Road

One of those lazy Sunday mornings when Xi En woke up early; we decided to checked out this tucked away cafe joint – Cafe Melba –  at Goodman Arts Centre.



There are outdoor and indoor seating spaces. We choose outdoor seats to keep an eye on my running bunny.


You can spot the place when you drive towards Fort Road and on weekends there will be a small bouncy castle to entertain the kiddos. It’s also a pets friendly restaurant. Smile


PB112655I think any cafes with a bouncy castle win the kids. Smile But what I really liked is the big open space in front of the cafe.  There is large open field and a gravel ground for children/pets to run wild.

It’s a good idea to bring some digging toys and balls to keep them self-entertained. Oh, and spray on the mosquito repellent if your children has blood types which attract the mozzies. Xi En’s blood happened to taste really sweet to them.



Food wise – Honestly, it’s not fulfilling as some other hearty brunch/all day breakfast places. I came here during lunch hours once and I believed the food/drinks was better for lunch/dinner.

Our choices for the day:

Kim’s: “Full Melba Cooked Breakfast” (not super full actually)


Mine: “Pancakes with Berry Compote, whipped cream and maple syrup” (fluffy but the portion is still not enough for me. Maybe I am just a big eater!)


Overall, it’s still a decent place for play dates and a morning of fun for my boy.

Exhausted by the end of the morning, he sure had a good afternoon nap. Key reason to return again. Smile



Counting days and … Hope

It’s been months since I last blogged.

Approximately 5 months since the last proper entry on the hospitalisation of my boy. That was some drama on it’s own. But thank God, thus far, he had been kept out of trouble and we are doing the best to prevent any illness of any sorts.

We are happiest when he’s healthy. Smile


Behind the silence, there were some events unfolding. I don’t know what to say.. not sure if I want to share. Or rather, perhaps we are weary.. of unforeseeable circumstances again….

I was diagnosed of hyperthyroidism about the same time that Xi En was warded in the hospital. It’s something I have never heard of…. didn’t even know where my thyroid is located! Blamed the fact that I didn’t study biology.  Simply put, it is the disorder of thyroid glands which are located near the lower part of  one’s neck.  It’s also commonly know as Grave’s disease named after the person who discovered this disorder. Not the most hopeful name in my opinion.

My condition was picked up by a routine medical check-up which I had postponed for ages. The doctor broke the news to me while I was in Shanghai and that’s when I realised the reason behind the tell-tale symptoms such as heart palpitation, sweaty palms, hand tremors, irritability and etc. These were subtle symptoms which I had conveniently ignored for months; attributing them to lack of sleep, overworked and maybe just the usual-me!

The doctor advised me to seek treatment as soon as possible as my marker readings were over the roof. It’s about 100X higher than the tolerance levels. It’s a miracle I haven’t collapsed on the streets. But of course, warning from the doctor was enough to trigger a chain of actions once I came back to Singapore. I consulted my regular GP, the polyclinic and (im)patiently waited for an appointment at SGH to see an endocrinologist. All these while my boy was doing his best to recover in KKH.

The GP could have given me a regular medicine to counter the disease as I found out that it is pretty common among women to have thyroid disorders. But all are complicated by the fact that we were planning for a second baby. The dates were not aligned for me to know if I was pregnant or not. And certain thyroid medicine is not safe for a growing foetus. Thus I went from the GP to the polyclinic and ended up with an endocrinologist at SGH.  The endocrinologist is a pleasant, well-meaning lady who advised me against having a baby at this time. The body is not at it’s best stage. Lot of medicine to take to bring things under control and etc.. In her words: “Would be a silly idea to have a baby now.” That of course I understood and agreed. She packed me home after ordering a pregnancy test (to be sure) coupled with a huge stack of medicine which even the pharmacist questioned if I needed that much medication!

Armed with all that, I went home that day and ready to pop some pills. I am good with pills; a pill-popper. Well trained from my days in KKH. Smile

Less than 2 hours later, the endocrinologist called my mobile….. my heartbeat stopped for that few seconds. I think I knew what’s coming. The test result came out positive! No words of congratulations; just words of advice to reduce my pills dosage and to see an obstetrician as soon as possible. She said “We can only take it one day at a time…”

Jackpot! Or is it Murphy’s Law? Of course, I was thrilled with having a 2nd child whom we had wanted. But the coincidence of having an untreated illness together with the unknown fact of how it will affect my baby… it’s just too much to be overjoyed. The next thing I did – I texted Kim – “you are going to be a father, 2nd time”…… He called back immediately; same reactions as me. As any normal parents-to-be, we were happy but anxiety filled the air too.

We went on to understand that I have to continue with the thyroid medicine (Propylthiouracil – PTU). That is the safest medicine for pregnancy. But all medicine would cross over the placenta nonetheless and reached the baby. In other words, there is a chance that the baby might be born with hyperthyroidism or hypothyroidism (the opposite). There are other potential risks such as the body rejecting the pregnancy, low birth weight, premature birth; developmental issues and etc.. The list goes on… more than what we were prepared to hear.

Bringing the story closer to now, I am still carrying my 2nd BOY (yes, he’s a boy; another strong one again). Smile Currently at 24 weeks gestation, he had braved through the odds. I wasn’t concerned about temporary common symptoms of pregnancy such as nauseas; lack of energy etc. Instead, I was constantly wary of blood and the amniotic fluid. My first pregnancy taught me too much…. Thank God all went well from then…. just 1 episode of bleeding brought me to A&E; I am thankful enough.

It’s nerves wrecking though……. Pregnancy that is……..

A few days back, I had a growth scan to ensure that baby 2 is doing well in my womb. I always held my breath during these scans; because I knew well enough now what the sonographers were looking for…. This time, she focused on the placenta. Something wasn’t quite right but she wasn’t saying. We waited to see our favourite obstetrician to understand more. The condition is known as Placenta Previa Major or more commonly known as Complete Placenta Previa. I asked a few times if it’s just a low lying placenta which I vaguely heard before. But she reiterated that it’s “major”. A goggle search later gave me the full realisation that it’s the ultimate form of placenta previa – where the placenta is covering the entire cervix. This condition should had been picked up in earlier scans but then again, it might had just added on earlier to my long list of worries. Accordingly to the doctor, she said there’s nothing that can be done. It’s how the conception went which determined the position of the placenta. In some cases, the placenta might move upwards during the 3rd trimester aided by the growing uterus. It’s a slim chance though.

*The risks of such condition include:

  • problems for the baby, secondary to acute blood loss
  • Intrauterine growth restrictions due to poor placenta perfusion
  • increased incidence of congenital anomalies
  • life-threatening haemorrhage for the mother
  • increased risk of postpartum haemorrhage
  • increased risk of placenta accreta
  • caesarean delivery

*source: http://pregnancy.about.com/cs/placentaprevia/a/previa.htm


It’s another bomb shell to our current situation. As if it’s not enough to deal with Grave’s. We don’t need this; we don’t want this. We don’t need more. We just want a healthy baby.

All we have asked for is a normal pregnancy. I envied those who can go for babymoons; carry their baby to full term; go about doing their daily work and etc. When some friends complained how their baby bump is heavy and how they can’t wait to give birth and etc… quietly I wished they could understand that their “misery” is what some other mummies can’t even choose to go through.

But amidst all, we are HOPEFUL. We are praying. In the same light as my PPROM story, we believe in miracles; in the heart of God even when we can’t see the hands of God.

Little baby 2 is due in mid Feb 2013. We are believing in HOPE.

HOPE with us. Smile

“ Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” 

1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18 (NIV)